The
moment she opened her eyes, she was aware only of the encompassing darkness. And
the fear. Both pressed in on her like cold,
black water: surrounding her, smothering her.
Her mouth had been abandoned by the scream that was torn from it upon
waking, leaving her throat hollow and burning.
The
dream was gone, its memory with it. It ebbed
from her consciousness like a retreating tide that leaves only the cold sheen
of its presence behind on the sands.
"It
was only a dream," a comforting voice penetrated the darkness like a
lifesaving hand plunged through the depths, grasping her deluged mind and towing
it back to reality.
One
arm around her narrow shoulders pulled her snugly against him, and she gratefully
rested her face against the warmth of his chest. His hands were weathered and
rough, but his touch on her cheek was as a dove’s wing, brushing away her panic
along with her tears.
"Oh,
Theo—" she rasped, and she was overcome with sobs.
"Shhh,
now, my precious gem. I’m right here. I’ll always be right here." He pulled the heavy quilt further up over her
shoulders and held her firmly with both arms. After a while, her shudders
subsided. Finally, with a deep sigh, she stretched a small, pale hand to his
face and lifted her eyes to meet his.
"Do
you promise?" The innocence in her voice made his chest ache.
"Of
course, I do,” he assured. “We are meant
to be together. Nothing could ever change that." He placed a finger under
her chin, looked deeply into her shadowed jade eyes, and said with emphasis,
"Ever."
"I
love you," she told him, and she managed a weak smile.
"And
I love you." He said this quietly, reverently. That was how Theodore Patrick McCalister did
everything.
Her
eyes were blurry from tears and exhaustion, but Opal continued to gaze into his
handsome face, still rosy from the day’s windburn. Last evening, she had smoothed a lanolin balm
over his cheeks before supper, which had made his grin sparkle all the more
across their small wooden table. Her
twin sister, Olivia, had given her the small tin of lanolin, scented with
rosewater, as a wedding gift just two weeks before.
“You’ll need something fancy,” Olivia had
said. “And practical, too. I don’t know
how you will ever survive without all our nice things, Lovie.”
“I’ll do fine, Livie,” Opal told her,
tears spilling past her cheeks and onto the lace cover of her sister’s bed. “I don’t need fancy things. I can cook and clean and do for myself just
fine.”
Olivia giggled. “I just pray that Nonnie taught you enough
about cooking so you two don’t starve to death.” Their laughter failed to overcome their tears.
Sitting in the bedroom they’d shared
since birth, with its French provincial décor, they embraced for what they
feared was the last time. When they separated
at last, Opal went to her own bed and pulled a small cloth suitcase from
beneath it. She opened the case and
placed the tin inside, carefully covering it with one of the blouses she’d
packed. She looked to the window, where
the last few colors of sunlight were now evaporating.
“Only a few more hours,” she said
quietly. “I’ll be his wife. Even Father can’t stop us then.”
Opal
drifted into a more restful state now, although not fully into sleep. When a faint ray of sunlight washed across
her face, she opened her eyes. She peered
around her at the coarse log walls with brown daubing, the simple wooden table
and chairs and the stone hearth with its smoldering remains of yesterday’s
warmth. Theo had been collecting the stones for months. At each port along the river, after the barge
was unloaded and the other bargehands had strayed into town to find a meal or a
tavern, he would walk the river’s edge, seeking the perfectly smooth, flat
stones that he carried back to Mooringtown.
He had put every stone, every piece of timber in place to build their
home, and once every aspect was just right, he went to Harrelville to fetch
Opal.
Now,
as the orange glow of sunrise trickled into their tiny home, Opal began to fill
with dread. Theo would be leaving soon.
She
stifled the urge to ask him to stay. It
was pointless, anyway, since he had already taken time away from working for
them to marry. The ceremony, with only her sister and Theo’s best friend to
witness, was simple and quiet. Although she had always longed for a grand
wedding, dreamed of a lace-laden white gown and the glowing adoration of family
and friends, her father’s disavowal of their union had forced them to marry in
secret.
"No daughter of mine will marry
some miserable bargehand!"
he had ranted, as they stood among the idle sewing machines of the garment
factory.
"But Father, I love him! And he
loves me!"
"I have worked my whole life to
build all of this," he said, gesturing to the deserted room. "We are
a respectable family, and I won’t allow you to dishonor my name—my family’s
name—by marrying some…vagrant!"
He loomed above her as he spat the venomous words. Opal had never known him to
be so frightening: his narrowed eyes flashed with each verbal strike, his face
was crimson with rage and serpentine veins protruded on his forehead and neck.
Despite her efforts to appear
undaunted, she had felt herself shrinking before him. Straightening, she tried
to take a full breath, but her father’s fury was wrapped about her,
constricting her ribs; when she managed to speak, her voice was strained and
weak.
"Theo is not a vagrant. He works
very hard, and he has bought land in Mooringtown to build our home."
"Enough! I will never allow
it!"
"But, Father, plea—" The
sting of his hand against her cheek sent her reeling backward, but her bustle
cushioned the fall. She was stunned for a moment—her father had never struck
her before—but as she gingerly touched the burning area on her face, her
disbelief suddenly turned to indignation. Her jade eyes flared as she regarded
this now-unfamiliar monster.
His face was expressionless with
steely eyes fixed on her, and the hand, which remained extended toward her,
trembled slightly with simmering rage. It was impossible to tell from his stony
features whether he meant to strike her again or help her to her feet. The
moment lingered in icy silence.
Finally, Opal gathered up her heavy
skirts and got to her feet. Standing straight-spined before her father, she
realized for the first time that she was his equal height. She glared at him
for a moment, braced for another slap, but he was unmoving except for the
still-quivering hand that now reluctantly lowered to his side. Without a word,
she turned her back to him and started toward the door.
"Don’t do something foolish, you
ungrateful child!" He shouted after her. "I won’t allow you to
disgrace me! Do you hear me? I won’t allow it!"
She squared her shoulders and did not
look back.
Opal
blinked hard to clear the memories now.
She lifted her eyes to look at Theo’s face and was surprised to find his
eyes open. He tilted his head to look
back at her, and his loving gaze flooded her with warmth.
They
nestled together only a few minutes more before Theo, with a lingering kiss to
her forehead and a weighted sigh, rolled out of the bed. He dressed quickly in the chilly room, then
he added wood to the waning fire, which quickly revived.
Opal
slipped from the bed and prepared a light breakfast of eggs and bread. She was grateful that Theo’s workmates and
friends had given them so much food as wedding gifts. At first she hadn’t understood the simplicity
of their gifts, but she was coming to appreciate the practicality and sincerity
of their generosity.
They
ate in silence, each of them mulling in anxiety. Theo hated to leave Opal alone so soon, but
he couldn’t afford to lose his job, either.
Opal was not so apprehensive about being by herself; her fears were less
tangible, springing from the tormenting visions that had plagued her every
night since she and her father had argued.
Each time she’d awakened, though, she could remember only the essence of
her dreams. It was like rising out of a
frigid pool; even as she left the murky depths behind, its chilling damp sheath
lingered on her skin.
When
their meal was finished, Theo readied himself to leave.
“It’s
only three days. I’ll be back before you can miss me,” he said, his tone more
apologetic than reassuring. He held her
closely and kissed her once more. She
managed to hold back the flood of tears until the door closed behind him.
The
late winter weather turned much colder that afternoon. A chilling wind brought with it an icy rain
that did not relent until the morning of Theo’s return. On that morning, Opal looked to the early
eastern sky and smiled.
The
arc of a brilliant golden sphere was peeking just above the horizon, casting an
orange glow across the river, just visible in the distance. Blazing scarlet ribbons stretched above,
mingling with luminous pink and auburn.
Her smile began to fade as the old mariner’s tune drifted into her mind:
Red sky at morning, sailors take warning…
She
shook her head, rejecting the fear that suddenly washed over her. No, she would
not allow any troubling thoughts on this day.
She
tried to keep busy through the morning, but the hours lumbered past slowly,
heavily, endlessly. After she
straightened and cleaned every inch of the cabin, she tended the pot of stew
she would serve Theo tonight. Finally,
she settled into the squeaky rocking chair in front of the fireplace. The chair groaned, even with her slight weight,
but she soon found comfort in the rhythm of its complaint, and she slipped into
a light but placid slumber.
A
long afternoon shadow was rippling across the bare-wood floor, lapping at the
edges of her skirt, ebbing toward her feet.
She flinched as the dimness reached her, and her eyes fluttered
open.
She
immediately rose from her chair, looking about the room anxiously. It took only a moment for her to re-orient,
and then the chill of confusion was imbued with the warmth of happiness and
anticipation. She grinned as she checked the stew once more. Then she pulled a heavy wool shawl from a peg
near the door and, wrapping it closely around her shoulders and arms, left for
the docks.
The
sky was thick with grey clouds that seemed to grow larger and denser as she
drew closer to the river. The streets of the tiny town were bustling with
carriages and men and women scurrying to greet the incoming barge. It seemed
that nearly every resident was hurrying in the same direction—toward the
river—where the smoky clouds continued to grow. Behind her, Opal suddenly heard
the clamoring approach of the fire-wagon, and turned to see the charging team
of horses that pulled it toward—Theo!
She
began to run alongside the rest of the townspeople, her legs like anchors dragging
in mire. Her heart was pounding, her
breath heavy and fast as she raced toward the river.
At
last, she arrived at the levee, and she paused briefly at the crest. She quickly surveyed the frantic scene, blurred
by tears. Hundreds of people crowded
onto the banks and the landing. Beyond
them, forty or fifty yards out on the river, the barge was ablaze. Lofty flames engulfed most of the craft, and
black smoke billowed from the cabin structure at mid-deck. At least a dozen men
were in the water, struggling against the undertow and freezing water to reach
the dock. But Theo was not among them.
Opal
darted down the embankment and plunged into the crowd. She pushed her way through the swarming mob
until she reached the end of the pier.
A
few exhausted bargehands had managed to make it to the landing and were being helped
from the water near her. They were instantly surrounded by frantic people who
begged to know of the fates of their husbands, brothers and sons. She couldn’t
hear their answers amid the chaos, but Opal could see the shivering men shaking
their heads mournfully in response.
Her
eyes scanned the water once more, but she still didn’t see him. When her gaze reached the barge, Theo was
there. He stood near the stern of the
long boat, looking out over the turbid water; he seemed to number the men in
the water, his eyes slowly spanning toward the dock.
"Theo!"
Her desperate cry rang above the tumult, and he looked toward the dock. His
eyes came to rest on her terror-stricken face. He raised a hand toward her, and
seemed about to abandon the burning boat. Then, suddenly, he turned toward the
barracks, as if something there had called out to him. Opal looked also, expecting to see one of his
workmates emerging, but she could see only the fire-soaked walls of the
structure.
Theo
looked back to Opal. His face was drenched with indecision and fear. Even from
that insurmountable distance, Opal could see the despair in his eyes. In an
instant, she understood that he was deciding another man’s fate, and possibly
his own. Panic swelled inside her,
squeezing the blood from her heart, as she realized what was happening.
Theo
hesitated briefly; then, with one final, rueful gaze at his young bride, he
turned and rushed into the blazing cabin.
"Nooo!" She
screamed, reaching desperately and vainly toward where he had been.
At
that same moment, Opal felt a pressure against her back. She turned to glimpse the
unfamiliar visage of a woman who was struggling to reach the brink of the pier.
As the face moved quickly past, she
became abruptly aware of the icy patch beneath her feet.
As Opal fell away from the heedless faces, she
discerned one final image: the profile of her father, looking on at the
carnage, a wry sneer distorting his features.
The
river’s coldness engulfed her without warning, pulling her into the current,
and the bleary picture of her father’s face was drowned by a vision of her
gentle lover and his brave and selfless legacy.
As
she drifted beyond the reach of a few helpless strangers, she was submerged in
the frigid reality of her father’s treachery, and she suffocated with the
revelation of her loss. Overwhelmed by
sorrow, she quickly surrendered, sinking languidly into the placid depths of
the nightmare.
Suddenly,
from nowhere—and everywhere—a deafening tone penetrated her ears. The piercing
shriek grew louder and louder, more intense and shrill, until at last she
opened her eyes…and then there was only the darkness…and the fear…